Living My New Reality
WNAAD...June 1st is World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day.For me, this day is particularly poignant and significant. WNAAD was established in 2016...the same year that I found out that I was involved in such an experience. I started writing in support forums in 2017...when I was spinning in the tornado...right from the center of Hell...now I share my story and my
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Angel is one of the very talented performers at the Riu.I've interacted with him in fun moments on my last few trips there.I saw a fb post of his...it was a black ribbon for cancer.I couldn't quite get the Spanish translation to tell who died. So on my last day there he came to join me for lunch.I asked him
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Narcissistic abuse is very traumatizing to the psyche for many reasons...First...it always comes from a person who plays an important role in your life.A caregiver, insignificant other, spouse, siblings, close friend etc.You wouldn't be bothered if it was from a stranger...or from someone you didn't care about. You have fully and blindly placed your trust in this person...WITHOUT a valid
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A Narcissists worst nightmare is the TRUTH...They count on your silence...They know you will be too embarrassed or ashamed or fearful to say ANYTHING...When they leave they try to instill fear in you...with bullying tactics.In my case he tried to get me fired from my job and tried to file a restraining order against me when I spoke my truth...to
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Narcissists are chained to their baggage...don't take on any of it as your own...it's awful baggage...they lead an awful life.They cheat because they are cheaters...They lie because they are liars...YOU are none of these things.They ALWAYS end up being lied and cheated on...because they are cheaters and liars.THAT'S called karma...You get what you give.YOU are none of those things...don't carry
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I have always been a believer in a Higher Power.After I got divorced, I jumped right away into a situationship...and everyone knows how that turned out. It was rotten to the core...literally right from the start...By the end of the 'honeymoon phase' of these types of connections which is about a month...it was rotten...but I was determined to 'fix it'.Why
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I was handed knowledge through very painfully harsh experiences...and was also handed the gift of being able to express myself in words...mostly to help myself...but inadvertently helped others.These are painful but very valuable soul stretching experiences that teach you a lot about yourself and others...if you are open to it.I was handed some shit and was also handed a way
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The better question may be what do we grieve?Do you know what you have allowed yourself to grieve over your life time?We associate grief with death.In actuality through our lifetime we go through many types of loss that go unprocessed. Sickness, divorce, breakups, leaving ones county, losing pets, losing jobs, losing friendships etc are ALL a type of loss.Grief is
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By definition...A Hero is a person who is admired or idealized for courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities.Trying to rescue people from themselves is not a noble quality or task.Rescuing people is a toxic trait.ANYTHING and EVERYTHING we do is mostly self motivated...it makes us feel good helping others...thats why we do it...thats all well and good until we do
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At first I kicked myself for not leaving in the first month when the toxic toddler appeared and presented me with the first HUGE red flag...I could have saved myself so much grief...and wasted time.I was not aware of red flags at that time...I saw them as birthday balloons...something I could pop and hoped that would be followed by cake.I'm
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