Living My New Reality
We ALL have expectations...from our family members, kids, friends, colleagues, employers, employees, pets etc.EVERYONE that we have a relationship with...we have expectations from them...and vice versa.I expect my dog to not shit on my carpet... because I trained him...those are my expectations.My dog expects me to feed him...because he trained me...those are his expectations of me.We have expectations from EVERYONE
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We ALL come with self sabotaging behaviors that we have learned from our families, past relationships, for self preservation...etc.Some are more harmful than others. The epiphanies you have after being a part of a challenging Narcissistic relationship is well worth the horrific experience.It is a painful, foundation shattering experience...that I will absolutely NEVER repeat.Being dragged through broken glass is a
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You know a person has really changed when you get voluntary accountability...because they know their words are worthless at this point. Have you ever asked a toddler to say I'm sorry to another toddler?THAT is a meaningless apology...because they turn around and do the same thing again. Adults also behave in the same way. The Elements of a Good Apology...Say
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People who have been hurt find it very difficult to commit.For good reason.Once bitten twice shy.Unless they work on their pain and trauma and get rid of the baggage...without dropping it on to some one else's lap...it's going to reappear...its not going to disappear just because you want it to.It's takes a lot of effort and courage to heal.A hurt
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Having integrity means doing the right thing in a reliable way…even when NO one is watching. It's a personality trait that we admire, since it means a person has a moral compass that doesn't waver. It literally means having "wholeness" of character There have been many eye opening moments in my past 5 years.The biggest and the most distressing was
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Now...my own story sounds so preposterous to me.With my blinders off...I can now see the WHOLE picture.Once the cognitive dissonance faded and I started seeing clearly...I wondered...how did I allow ALL this crap into my life and be ok with it. This is how...It's life long grooming...Life long grooming by family, environment, culture, country, husbands, relationships etc.My WHOLE belief system
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Even a Narcissist serves a purpose...they are our BEST teachers.They are sent into your life to poke at your vulnerabilities.They too are soul mates sent to expose wounds for you to heal. Band-aids won't work anymore...It's major surgery.People are sent into your lives to mirror your core wounds to you.(not EVERYONE is a narcissist...some are just your plain garden variety
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A cliché we randomly use.I learned the REAL meaning of that cliché. Naively and without discernment...I placed my trust in the hands of the wrong undeserving person who had no intention of protecting my heart or valuing my soul or my life. I felt I died....From humiliation and embarrassment.Because I did not protect myself or listen to my intuition.Because I
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There are no winners or losers when people resort to playing mind games in relationships...just chaos and confusion...but there are always consequences.People leverage manipulative mind games in relationships for control.Most manipulators know what they are doing...it's a tried and true technique.Very few don't realize they are doing it.They use manipulation as their coping mechanism to 'try' to bring things under
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How long and to what extent can we betray our own selves.Sometimes it's a whole lifetime if we are living in denial inside an illusion. For me...I allowed someone to pick me up and throw me out of car because he didn't want to be accountable for some thing he had done...so he chose to cover that up by doing
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