Living My New Reality
Emotional Amnesia....By definition....In the context of narcissism, "emotional amnesia" or "narcissistic amnesia" refers to a selective memory distortion where narcissists may forget or deny certain actions, particularly those that are emotionally hurtful or contradictory to their grandiose self-perception. This isn't necessarily a genuine memory loss, but rather a defense mechanism or tactic to avoid accountability and maintain a positive self-image.
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Adult relationships....By definition...An adult relationship, especially in a romantic context, is characterized by mature interpersonal dynamics, open communication, mutual respect, and a shared responsibility for the relationship's well-being.It goes beyond the "honeymoon phase" and focuses on building a lasting bond through trust, honesty, and understanding. Adult relationships also involve acknowledging each individual's autonomy and needs, while still valuing the commitment
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I'm looking for YOU in others...We ALL do this to a certain extent...especially when we loved certain qualities in people...you are naturally drawn to those qualities...not necessarily to the 'person' but you are drawn to those qualities.By the same token we are also hypervigilant to the qualities that repel us from people.We get used to how people treat us...we tend
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Next 2 good minutes...When we were in our 40s I used to say this often to Robbie...'We have 2 good years left' (I'm not sure why I said that) let's make good memories...so we traveled a lot...and I'm glad we did.In 2014 my WHOLE life changed...I decided to end that relationship...Robbie decided to retire in Thailand but was nervous to
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Null and Void....Taking marital vows or making mental promises subconsciously to stay in relationships through thick or thin...till death do us part...do not apply nor should they in abusive situations.They become Null and Void.Most of us find it difficult to abandon relationships...easily...due to guilt, innate values(faulty as fuck as they may be) the kids, finances, longevity of the relationship, he's
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Imagine that!!!End of a long persistent journey for the narcissists in my life.From my perspective...what I learned through this journey. I wasn't their first target...none of us are.They were certainly not my first rodeo...but I'm pretty certain...this was a much needed experience for me to go through in order to stop allowing the same personality type into my life repetitively.I
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What's your job description...Still allowing the same wishywashy/indecisive/ boundary pushing/toxic/ dismissive avoidant/ noncommittal/narcissistic/ abusive person or persons waltz in and out of your life or make you relive the same old story over and over.Still falling for their 'but I love/care/I would never' non verbal or verbal sentiment after doing some foul shit...repetitively. Most times without even an apology. Listen
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'Icky' feelings are there for a reason...Took me over 53 years to recognize 'icky' feelings as red flag indicators.Took a lot of reparenting work to unlearn, re-adjust and undo the damage caused by my faulty childhood programming to get me there.I realized later I could not recognize or interpret those icky feelings correctly as fear or anxiety...I just found it
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Betrayal....By definition....Betrayal is the act of breaking trust or confidence, or being disloyal to someone. It can also refer to the feeling of being harmed by someone's actions.Betrayal is NEVER an act from strangers...Betrayal is ALWAYS an act from someone you know, care about or love.If they were strangers you wouldn't give 2 shits.If you feel betrayed by a person
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The Destination....I walked hand in hand with the Devil through the fires of Hell...discarded him at his own home and walked back out with a few inevitable burns that ultimately healed to scars...relatively "uncharred"...but just enough to have an incredulous story to share.I couldn't have done that without a lot of help...An Angel holding my other hand guided me back
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