Now…my own story sounds so preposterous to me.
With my blinders off…I can now see the WHOLE picture.
Once the cognitive dissonance faded and I started seeing clearly…I wondered…how did I allow ALL this crap into my life and be ok with it.
This is how…
It’s life long grooming…
Life long grooming by family, environment, culture, country, husbands, relationships etc.
My WHOLE belief system was based on a faulty foundation.
You don’t know what you don’t know.
Now I do know.
I had to start from ground zero.
I had gotten myself to a place where there was no going back to where I came from.
Luckily, I had soooo lost my way…I was not even able to find my way back to where I came from.
I had to pave a new path.
My old path had not served me well.
Not knowing better I kept repeating my methodology over and over until I hit rock bottom.
Smack dab in the middle of an abusive relationship.
If you don’t make the correct decisions based on your intuition…the Universe will force you to see it in an ugly way.
I waited till then.
I was fighting my intuition to make my abusive relationship…not abusive…???
Really?? Was I really trying to do that?
I was stumbling and climbing over ALL the road blocks the Universe threw in my way…to make my ego right.
My ego refused to be in an abusive relationship.
Don’t fight your intuition…listen to it…it’s there for a reason.
There was no ignoring it any more.
I could not repeat ALL of that even if I wanted to…it was all so preposterous.
